Divorce left her in pain, caused her to hate God

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By Ireland Daniel —

As a result of her parent’s divorce, Savannah Hernandez felt shame, had insecurities, depression, and had given up on believing in God.

“I hated God at this point of my life,” says Savannah on YouTube, “I just felt like, man, there is no way that God is real. I’m going through so much stuff. How is God real? How did he make this earth?”

Many fall away from God and don’t come back, but Savannah is proof that restoration of faith is possible.

Savannah’s parents got divorced when she was 11 years old. From there, she swirled downward emotionally.

“It was really hard on me just to face as a child and trying to figure out what was going on and just how to really just grow up to be a woman,” she says.

Savannah had a strong dad who never left her or made her feel alone, but she still felt an emptiness inside. She looked for masculine approval, which caused her to feel worse about herself and develop more insecurities.

“I did feel like I was alone at some point in my house, and I did run to guys and just love to try to find some type of love and temporary fix in those areas that I was hurting,” Savannah says. “It just caused me to hurt, and it caused me just shame and feeling like I wasn’t worthy and that was really hard for any girl to face.”

After she graduated, Savannah tried smoking and became stubborn and prideful.

“I was just doing all these things behind my dad’s back,” she recounts. “I’m not doing anything to pursue any of my goals, I’m not doing anything, I don’t believe in a God.

Then her sister got saved.

“I saw peace and joy in her. I saw happiness and love and grace and mercy.”

How can I get that? How can I feel loved? How can I feel happiness, she wondered. She felt a growing hunger to know God and know who Jesus is, so she went to a church.

Savannah went to a week-long revival. She cried her eyes out, calling out to God to reveal himself to her, and on the first night, she felt the Holy Spirit rush upon her.

“I was like, Jesus you’re real! I was so excited. I was like, there is a God,” she says. “I felt like, who is this girl that I see in the mirror?”

She had been born again and become a new creature in Christ.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

Savannah attends Clear Point Church in Moreno Valley, California and she continues to inspire others to push forward in faith by posting videos on YouTube.

“God had to crack my face,” Savannah said. “If it wasn’t for that experience that I felt, I don’t know where I’d be today, I have no idea and I thank God for that.”

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Ireland Daniel studies at the Lighthouse Christian Academy near Malibu, CA.

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