Singer Billie Eilish: Porn destroyed my brain

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By Mark Ellis —

Billie Eilish in 2019 (puth.tv)

Grammy winning singer-songwriter Billie Eilish, 19, told radio host Howard Stern: “As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace, and I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest.”

Eilish has won seven Grammy Awards, two American Music Awards, and three MTV Music Video Awards. She is the youngest artist in Grammy history and second to win in all four categories—Best New Artist, Record of the Year, Song of the Year, and Album of the Year—in the same year.

“I started watching porn when I was 11,” she said. “I didn’t understand why it was a bad thing. I thought that’s how you learn how to have sex.”

But Eilish revealed pornography’s devastating effect on her life:

“I think it really destroyed my brain and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn. I think that I had sleep paralysis, and these almost like night terrors, just nightmares. I think that’s how they started, because I would just watch abusive [pornography] and that’s what I thought was attractive, and it got to a point where I couldn’t watch anything unless it was violent, and I didn’t think it was attractive.”

The emotional damage happened before she had her first sexual relationship.

“The first few times I, you know, had sex, I was not saying ‘no’ to things that were not good,” Eilish told Stern. “And it was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to. I’m so angry that porn is so loved, and I’m so angry at myself for thinking that it was OK.”

In her recently released song, “Male Fantasy,” Eilish sings about her addiction to pornography:

Home alone

 Trying not to eat

 Distract myself with pornography

 I hate the way she looks at me

 I can’t stand the dialogue

 She would never be

 That satisfied, it’s a male fantasy

 I’m going back to therapy

 In an interview with Apple Music podcast “me & dad radio,” she described herself as “religious” in her childhood. “When I was little, like when I was a little kid, I was super religious for no damn reason. My family never was religious. I didn’t know anyone that was religious. And, for some reason, as a little girl I just was incredibly religious, and that went on for years.”

God was wooing her heart as a child, but something strange occurred.

“At one point, I don’t know what happened: it just completely went away. It was weird, because then I had a couple years of being almost anti-religious for no reason, and I don’t know why that happened, I don’t know what made me that way. And then, after that period of my life, I’ve loved the idea of other beliefs.”

She is open to spiritual exploration. “I love talking about what people believe in and hearing why they believe in it and what makes them believe in it. And especially if I don’t agree, because I like to listen and I like to understand. And I think it’s really important to be supportive of all beliefs in the world and all opinions and not shoot people down for what they believe in.”

In the same interview, her father, Patrick O’Connell said, “We didn’t really talk about religion at all. It wasn’t in our household very much. And you [Billie Eilish] just…believed. You had all these kinds of organized thoughts about the whole thing. And I thought it was pretty marvelous. I didn’t object to it. I didn’t say: ‘You can’t believe that.’”

Eilish replied to her father, “No, you guys were really supportive of me. But I don’t not believe and I don’t do believe: I’m in a very neutral position. I’m open to every belief, pretty much. And yeah, I love the idea that there’s a God. So why not? How would I know? I’m not going to say I know, I don’t — nobody knows.”

 

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