By Mark Ellis —
There were three attempts on his life while he worked as a male prostitute. Even though he hated God, he sensed that God saved his life on each occasion. At the core of his being was a hunger for love he never could quench, until a river of new life flowed into his heart.
“I was living a secret life as a male prostitute,” says David Kyle Foster, author of “Love Hunger” and the producer of a new documentary film, “Such Were Some of You.”
During his seven years as a male prostitute, he slept with three or four men a night. At the same time, he found a measure of success as an actor, landing a starring role in various B-movies, a string of national TV commercials, and several ‘Movies of the Week.’
During these years, disquietude filled his heart. “I had so much self-hatred inside me,” he says. “My father had been a pastor and here I was a male prostitute.” Foster was also heavily addicted to drugs and pornography.
There were three attempts to kill him when he worked as a prostitute. “On one of the incidents the man was viciously strangling me in the back of a car on a dark street,” he recalls.
In the violent struggle that ensued, he couldn’t breathe or cry out. “I just gave up because I wanted to die anyway,” he says. At the moment he gave up the will to live, words miraculously came out of his mouth he can’t explain.
“I am a good person,” Foster managed to utter. He believes he never would have said those words. He felt like God spoke the words through his mouth.
The concise self-affirmation seemed to momentarily startle his attacker and neutralize his psychotic rage. “The man thought he was doing God a favor by killing me. He didn’t know what to do so he ordered me out of the car.”
Foster sprang from the back seat and bolted down the street. As he ran through the shadows, he muttered, “God, I hate you. Why are you saving me like this?”
In the late ‘70s Foster had been living in an ashram and following the Guru Maharaj Ji, the so-called “Boy Guru,” also known as Prem Rawat. Rawat arrived in the U.S. at age 13 in 1971 and took the reins of the Divine Light Mission, established by his father.
Foster and many other young people were attracted to the Mission because of Rawat’s claim he could impart knowledge directly from God to his followers. Many lived communally in ashrams scattered around the U.S., guided by various “Mahatmas.”
Finding a River of Life
But after Foster’s brush with death, he opened the pages of the New Testament for the first time in many years.
“It was forbidden by the cult to read the Bible in the ashram,” he recalls, “so I read it under the covers at night with a flashlight.”
As he read from the Book of John, God’s truth pierced his heart. He started to pray, “God, I don’t want to be deceived if this guru is not you. I just want to follow the one true God.”
Then an amazing thing happened. “Suddenly something like a camera aperture opened in my chest and an incredible, powerful, rushing energy started pouring into my heart with great intensity,” he recounts.
“It was like being at the bottom of Niagara Falls and having it hit you full on.” His old heart seemed to melt away, as if it went into another dimension.
Foster says it was a very physical sensation. “I was on the floor from it. It felt like a raging waterfall. It sounded like a million voices.”
Even though it was somewhat terrifying, he experienced something wonderful at the same time. “It felt like liquid love. I knew I was loved completely and unconditionally despite all I had done.”
“That really grabbed me, the fact that I could be loved by God in spite of all the evil in my past.”
Later, as he read John 4, he sensed he had experienced the River of Living Water described by Jesus.
As a result of this powerful experience, Foster decided he must go to Israel and try to find the real Jesus.
He signed up for a secular tour through UCLA, because he didn’t trust Christians. At the end of the tour he was alone on the Mount of Olives, and began to tag along behind a Christian group. Then he had a second mystical experience with God.
“As the pastor stopped and read words from the Bible, I heard Jesus also saying them in my spirit. There was one audible voice and one inner voice. God was tuning me into a radio frequency where the eternal Word was being spoken,” he recounts.
“I thought, ‘Wow, the Bible is literally the Word of God.’ Nobody had ever suggested that to me before.”
Foster walked into the Garden of Gethsemane and knelt down at the rock where it is said that Jesus kneeled on the night he was arrested. Then Foster began to pray.
“God, whoever you are, I give up. You are the one who created the heavens and the earth…you’re the one I’m speaking to. My guru can do miracles and Jesus can do miracles. How am I supposed to know who is God?”
He wasn’t expecting an answer, but immediately, the still small voice of the Lord imparted these words: Who proved His love for you?
“I had just seen the place where Jesus was scourged and the spot where He was crucified, so the proof of his love for me was fresh in my mind. I had examined Buddha, Krishna, and Muhammad and all the others and I realized they never demonstrated love in real significant ways.”
“Only Jesus had done that and then He rose from the dead to prove he was God.” He recognized that Jesus was the only candidate for a genuine incarnation of God.
Foster flew back to L.A. and returned to his ashram. Filled with a new boldness from above, he told the people living there they were not following the true God. In fact, he told them they were following the antichrist! That got him kicked out.
He sought counsel with Jack Lew, an associate pastor at Hollywood Presbyterian Church. “I’ve been sleeping with three or four people a night for the last 10 years,” he confessed to Lew. He also told him about his drug addiction. “I know you’re here to tell me to stop and I’m here to tell you I can’t stop.”
“It’s good to realize you can’t stop,” Lew replied. “Let’s let Jesus do it for you.”
The two men prayed together. “God, if you will, set me free from these things,” Foster prayed.
As he recalls that moment, he says, “I was newly saved and I believed him. Nobody told me what God couldn’t do, so I went home and believed God would set me free.”
The prayer of faith was answered! He left behind his life as a male prostitute. “I never took drugs again and never acted out. It was miraculous!” he says.
“The temptations didn’t go away,” Foster observes. “But the power they had over me went away. God gave me the ability to say no and there was power behind the no for the first time ever.”
It took Foster seven years before he was fully healed of the demonic strongholds and addictive patterns in his
brain. After seven years, he felt he was healthy enough for a relationship with the opposite sex.
He asked God if he should marry, and shortly after that, he had a dream in which he married God in heaven. “At the time, I didn’t realize that is a common dream for nuns and priests in the Catholic Church,” Foster notes.
Then he was flipping through a catalog and noticed a wedding ring. He kept turning the pages, but felt God nudging Him once more: Stop, go back to that ring. That’s our wedding ring.
When he turned back to the page he saw the inscription on the ring was from the Song of Solomon: “I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.”
“The word beloved in Hebrew is ‘David,’” he notes, “which is my name.”
“There is a multi-level perfection to it when God guides me,” he marvels. After the dream he became certain his “call was to remain single,” so he never married, “except to the Lord.”
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Foster founded Mastering Life Ministries in 1987 and is also the producer and host of “Pure Passion” — a televised outreach designed to equip the church to minister to those trapped in sexual sin and brokenness. He is the author of “Sexual Healing: A Biblical Guide to Finding Freedom from Sexual Sin and Brokenness,” which has been made into an “Angel Award” winning video and audio course and has been used by many ministries. David has served as adjunct professor at Asbury Theological Seminary, The Bible Institute of Hawaii, Logos Christian College & Graduate School and Trinity Episcopal School for Ministry and currently serves on the faculty of the Wagner Leadership Institute.